To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven….A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away. (Ecclesiastes 3: 1, 6)
I am healing. My mind, body and spirit are rejuvenated. As I sit alone on the porch of my high school friend’s house on Lake Athens, Texas, I can feel the energy returning.
For 20 months I have been seeking meaning to the very difficult end to an otherwise enjoyable and self-satisfying 38-year career in higher education. I ask myself over and over, “Why me? Why did my career have to end so contemptuously?”
This morning as I watch the sun come up over the tree-lined lake, I find some solace in the light as it reflects upon the water. Simply, something tells me that it was time to retire. Perhaps if the last 19 months of my career had not been so miserable I would not have retired at 60. The tumultuous end to my higher education work simply made the good-bye easy. I have no regrets leaving when I did.
As I draw near to God on the beautiful morning, He draws near to me. He whispers to me that I have a purpose on this Earth that transcends higher education employment. I am not defined by it.
I do not yet know the fullness of His plans for me. I will take retirement one day at a time. He will reveal to me, in His own time, what work he has for me to do.