I often ponder whether there is a God. I grew up with God-fearing parents and went to Sunday school and church services in a conservative, evangelistic Christian congregation. I attended a Christian college. I worked at Christian colleges for 15 years of my career. I’m not the kind of person you’d think would question the existence of God.
I am highly educated. Less than 1% of the population of the world has the level of education I do. I mention this because the Bible also tells us about a wise person named Solomon. “For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow” (Ecclesiastes 1: 18). Sometimes the existence of a God and an afterlife just don’t jive with facts, science, and knowledge.
The Bible tells us that if we have the faith the size of a mustard seed, we could move mountains (KJV Matthew 17: 20). The Word also says “now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (KJV Hebrews 11: 1).
Regardless of my ponderings, and sometimes doubts, I choose to believe there is a God who controls the universe. Why? Because I do have evidence of things not seen.
In the worst times of my life I pray the most. I give over to God my grief and sorrow. He heals. For me, it is impossible to heal without the power of my Maker. He carries me through situations which I’m convinced are killing me. But, when I give it up to God, He saves me from horrific events and predicaments.
My faith in God has healed my illnesses: body, mind, and spirit. He has taken care of my loved ones and friends. What my family members have endured over the years has not been easy. But God has allowed us to heal and to live full and happy lives in Him.
God does not stop people we love from dying. Everyone has to die. It is part of the circle of life.
But God helps us cope and heal. He gives us the hope that there eternal life beyond this world of pain and tears. “O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? Thank God He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.” (I Corinthians 15: 55, 57).
Yes, I ponder, I worry, I wonder, is there a God? Is there something beyond our earthly bodies, minds, and spirits? I hope there is. I choose to believe there is. I am a richer person because of it.